I’ve been unwell for the past few weeks or so. No, not entirely sick, just a feeling of lethargy, lack of energy and enthusiasm, concentration and moody all rolled into one. The kids been down with cough and cold too. The weather’s terrible these days. I think Malcolm is about to self-wean any moment as he doesnt seem to want to nurse so often nowadays. But then, he still wants to nurse during the night.
The problem is as breastmilk is produced based on a supply and demand routine, i’m not producing much during the nights for him. So,you can guess how difficult night times can be when he gets pretty frustrated when he doesnt seem to be able to draw as much as he wants. He doesnt seem to show interest in his Korkor’s goat’s milk either. Couple that with the fact that he has a stuffy nose and is still coughing every once in a while, i have with me one very cranky baby all day and all night long.
I’m tired. Sick and tired, really. Gordon’s eating habits are becoming more difficult as the days goes on. I’m running out of ideas what to make for him. Every morning is a drag and my mood screws up even before noon approaches. I’m going on a detox session to give my body a cleanse. Nothing drastic as i’m still nursing. A thorough detox will throw off too much toxins into my system and may get into my breastmilk. Not good for baby; even though he may not want to nurse. Still, i have to be careful, right.
I have a few options. I think best for the time being will still be a juice fast. Plenty of fruits and vegetables juicing recipes to go through. This is a good time to experiment with all the recipes i have for so long. Apart from a good detox program, i need lots of sleep to rejuvenate my mind, body and soul. They are all sleep-deprived and over-worked. I hope after a week or two, a healthier and more cheerful me will emerge. I hate the NOW me.